Transcription … oh how painful

Ok, I had forgotten just how painful transcription really was. Oh my goodness. I had been using Express Scribe but you have to buy the pro version of it to be able to plop really large files into it for transcription. So, I thought use audacity to rip the file to an MP3, but no that came out as a staticky mess that I really can’t stand listening to. So I am back to old faithful, my word document, command + tab, the arrow keys, and the space bar using quicktime. It seems to be working for now. I have done about a minute and I really don’t want to talk about how long it took to get just that much typed up. The good news is that I only have to do 15 minutes. So, I haven’t checked in for a while and I needed to get something put in my research journal. I also have done a participant observation since my last post, but more on that later.

Naruto and Hinata had Kids!!!

naruto and hinata with kids

Ok, here is one my vices. I have been a Naruto fan for almost a decade. I just read the series finale and was trying to figure out who Naruto had kids with. I have been pulling for Naruto and Hinata to get together for as long as I can remember and according to the pick above, I think I may have gotten my wish. I know that this may be silly for some of you and yet, reading Naruto each week has been one of my favorite self-care routines. Cha Dattebayo!!!!!!!!!!!

All it takes is positive encouragement from time to time

I had another qual research class last night. To be honest, I was dreading going and yet I have to because I am too nerdy to not miss a class unless it is an emergency. However, the class turned out to be informative and useful. We talked about ethnography and how to conduct ethnographic studies. One of the things I really like about the class is that the professor gives us assignments that force us to think about how specific methodologies would be useful if we wanted to conduct a study. That being said, it seems like all of my mock-studies always come back to trying to learn about how to help survivors of human trafficking. I find myself really enjoying qualitative research so far and I even have a project running right now. I wonder if I will feel this way when it comes time to conduct interviews and begin analyzing the transcripts?

I have my days

There are days when life just seems to slap me upside the head. With all that is going on (family, school, work), it is sometimes difficult to breath. Sometimes, I feel like that plate spinner that I used to watch on network television when I was a kid (gee, did I just date my self? guess so). It is interesting to say the least. I have so many things that I want to do and yet I have to focus my time and attention on the things that need to get done. Up to this point, I don’t really know how I have pulled it off.

I know that none of you ever have to compartmentalize what is going on in your life, but it seems like a daily chore for me. I used to be a hyper-political person and I used to care deeply about who won what election. And recently, I would have to say that my interest had wained. Or, so I thought. I can’t believe that I actually stayed up late last night watching election returns again. It is amazing how addicting to politics used to be for me. I found myself hoping for one result over another and in the process it was almost as if that became the most important thing in my life. I even found myself falling back into my old ways of gathering news and all it took was one little evening of indulgence.

You see, years ago a changed started happening in my heart related to politics. I began to understand that it was not a world that I could participate in. Because, when one is talking about national level politics, it is almost impossible to find a candidate that does not believe in using force to accomplish the nations goals.

Force comes in may forms. Yes, we all know the military. However, I have to remind myself all the time that rhetorical violence is just as (if not more) dangerous. And, every election cycle, negative campaign ads crop up and inundate the media outlets if a candidate senses things are not going in her or his favor. So I had to reset, because yesterday was one of those days for me and this is my confession.

Success and Failure

How does a researcher learn how to conduct good research without a lot of trial an error? I think the answer is that without failure it doesn’t happen. Such was the case with non-participant field observation. What successful nice was that I manage to get a lot of notes. What was a failure was my expansion write up. Ungh. I barely had time to transcribe all of the information before I had to turn it in. I tell you, sometimes grad school can feel like a bit of a pressure cooker. Well, my notes have been workshopped and now I am waiting for the results. The good news is that I have to do a participant observation next and I feel so much more prepared for it. I just hope it didn’t cost me my grade for how badly the first part went.

I have exhausted my supply of grounded theory articles now it is time for a little bit of phenomenology

Well this week, I finished all of the readings I could get my hands on for grounded theory. Now, I am going to take a temporary shift to look at narrative inquiry and then move into phenomenology. It seems like I am starting to get my brain wrapped around this stuff and still it feels a little like I am on a taffy machine.

So, Can I Just Say How Much I Love Coherence Therapy?

I am in a class this semester that is all about learning coherence therapy. Wow. I am not the kind of person who is sold on words like “gold standard” when it comes to therapy. As a matter of fact when people have to use superlatives to describe their deal when contrasting it with someone else’s, I get very squeamish very quickly.

I have been looking for a treatment modality that is scientifically grounded, constructivist congruent, phenomenology sound, and humanistically concerned. Basically, I have been looking for all of the things that make up who I am as a therapist. Now, I think I finally have it. Also, let me be the first to admit it, I am awful at it. It is like learning a new language or a new way to think because it flies in the face of standard treatment modalities. I may be new at it now, but one day, yes one day I will be conducting research using coherence therapy. I am sold, now if I could just get good at it so that I can effectively use it with clients I would be a very happy person.

Non-participant observation. Data collected.

I manage to gather my first non-participant observational data this weekend. It only lasted 20-minutes and I found it so difficult to stay focused. It really was an interesting chore. Add to that, I was trying to get as many details as possible that I hope I didn’t miss too much.

Next week, I plan on doing my participant observation and seeing how that goes. It makes life easier that this a practice run and that I am not really gathering data for a “real” research project and still, I find that I am nervous because the assignment will require more from me than I would normally do in the given situation. In any case, I have to stay on top of these assignments or they will get away from me.

Days off

Interestingly enough, I know days off are supposed to be for rest and relaxation. Time to be spent with family and laying aside the cares of the world. However, as a grad student, days off from the regular schedule are days in which I don’t get to use my regularly allocated study and research time. I lost five hours yesterday and will lose another five today (the largest chuck of time I have dedicated to reading and writing). At the moment, I am now playing catch up and with homework that is due on Wednesday. Don’t get me wrong, time with my family was great and the assignment clock does not stop when the school goes on fall break.